As this year draws to an end I have gotten a chance to look back and try to understand the things I have done right or wrong. The choices I should have made, also to see how much I have changed during the year. I never thought in a million years that I would be here, at this point in life. Who would have thought that the little girl from Oklahoma who never lived in one place for more than 3 years, who has been homeless more times than she can count. Who thought that graduating high school was going to be her greatest accomplishment. Who has a fear of leaving her comfort bubble, to not be accepted, a fear of failing at what God wants her to do.
By God’s grace here she is going to college, standing out so people have to accept her as she is and not for what the world wants her to be. Knowing that she may fail God, but he is greater than any of her failings. Trusting God and leaving her comfort bubble and going overseas to do his work.
This last year has changed me in many way, more small than bigger ways. The small changes are the ones that will be with me tell the end of time. There are many people who helped me to this point of my life, and there are more to come. There are things that I wished I did and didn’t do. there are things that I wish I did better, but I didn’t put my whole self into it. This next year my goal is to tell God to send me before he tells me where to go. To pray about my problems that I can’t control. As I look back on 2013 yes there are things I would change but if I had the chance to change them I wouldn’t because I wouldn’t be the person I am now. All I can hope for is that I am the person God wants me to be.